I’ve been
accused of making scenarios, can you believe it?
This is not
an accusation, it’s a compliment! But, well, I have to give the guy some
credit. He is right. I’m making scenarios all the time and for everything.
Seriously, everything.
Let’s say I
walk the streets and happen to overhear a conversation. Then bam! I have made a
whole story, I’ve seen the images, the setting and all. I don’t do it on
purpose, really. My mind just races and most of the times I can’t reach it and
make it stop.
The same
happens when I have committed to something and the time to fulfill my promise
is limited. My brain calculates everything that can go wrong and everything
that won’t and before I even realize it, I’ve got all the options and
possibilities in my head and I’m getting nervous.
You don’t really
want me to start talking about movies! Most of the times I figure out what is
going to happen. Is it my fault that is pretty obvious? Damn it, kind of is. I
should keep my mouth shut next time I watch a movie with another person.
I don’t
really know why this is happening, but I do tend to make scenarios. It’s like I’m
programmed this way only that my algorithm seems like and endless loop. It’s
like a glitch in the program.
Stories
float in my brain, forming, changing, searching a way to make it to words, to reality
and some of them manage to stir something inside me and tickle my fingertips so
I have to write them down. Like an itchiness that won’t go away until you scratch
it and make your peace with it.
So, if that is my accusation … I plead guilty.
But well, I’ll
try not to bombard everyone else with my crazy scenarios. That much I can do.
At least I
think so.
Have you
felt anything like this? Oh, please tell me about it.
I bet you're never bored anymore, not with that busy mind of yours! Everything is a story waiting to happen, that's what I tell myself especially during a mental breakdown.
ReplyDeleteAs for stories, scenes, and characters coming to me, I went through a rough time during the divorce and my mind was in total slumber. I thought maybe that part of me was done and I wasn't a storyteller anymore. I'm finally getting lost in daydreams again and it's wonderful!
Happy flying, Athina!!
Yes, I've let the days of boredom long behind me and I'm glad I did.
DeleteI love this Robyn! "Everything is a story waiting to happen." It's so dreamy.
I'm so sorry you had to go through a rough time, but everything happens for a reason, so you came stronger and more awesome through this, right? So, get yourself lost in daydreams and share them with us. :)
Happy swimming, Robyn! Swim fast to greatness!
I'm the type to figure out everything that could possibly go wrong, too. (I blame the pessimist in me!) Also, I totally know what you mean about movies. It can be pretty easy to guess what'll happen, most of the time!
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