I had a
whole different TOL planned for today, but something else got in the way. Not a
pretty one, but this is what I’m thinking right now and as much as I try it won’t
go away.
So I follow the only way I know how to deal with it.
I’m writing
it down ... because it’s one of those days.
It’s been a
while since I felt like this, but you never know when self-doubt will knock on
your door. Well, today it tore down my door and hurried inside. With no reason and not a sign.
It felt like
a huge nasty wave coming out of nowhere and suddenly I’m drifting away and there
is water in my lungs, so I can’t breathe. And I’m panicking. My head hurts, my
chest is burning and the surface is miles away.
So, there’s
either drowning or struggle.
I choose
struggle.
Nelson
Mandela had said: There is no easy walk to freedom anywhere, and many of us
will have to pass through the valley of the shadow of death again and again
before we reach the mountaintop of our desires.
Well,
somewhere in that valley I am lost already, but desire is what drives me
forward. Isn’t it after all a kind of freedom we all crave for? What if it is against
the tide or in the opposite direction of the wind?
No one has a
say on our desires.
Aww I hope everything is well Athina. Giving you hugs and strength to move pass this tide and get back to the surface hail and well.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Ki. The hugs and strength are very helpful. The surface seems closer now.
DeleteEven in this dark place, who you are shines. Your words are beautiful. I say chase the storm like you're doing with this TOL post because the skies always clear. I'm sending you hugs, Athina! {{{{}}}}
ReplyDelete"The skies always clear." I hold on to that, Robyn. You make me keep swimming!
DeleteI'm sending you hugs too {{{{}}}}
P.S I've missed your TOLs!!
Struggles only make us stronger and highlight our strengths! Choose to get through it and you will. I hope you are feeling better today :) Go with the flow and take a deep breathe! * If we never had night, we wouldn't be able to see the stars *
ReplyDeleteChanzie @ Mean Who You Are.
You're totally right! I read somewhere that we choose to have the problems we have. So we choose to get through and we will!
DeleteI'm feeling so much better! Thanks for stopping by.
Have a great day!