Thursday, December 12, 2013

Think Out Loud: Enough



This is Think out Loud. It’s a weekly meme created to help bloggers break out from the blogging bubble. The rules are simple. We post whatever we want and let people know what’s in our mind. Visit the creator on Thinks Books and join too. It’s so cool to share your random thoughts.


I’m thinking out loud today, but my thoughts are dark. I don’t really want to bring you down, so I apologize in advance. This meme has ended up to be so redeeming, most of the times, that is addictive. But is a good thing. :)

Anyway, I was thinking that another year is coming to an end and there are too many things that are still troubling me. Too many stuff that don’t seem to improve. And I want to believe that the New Year will be different, but how can I be sure?

I watched an episode last night and a few words stuck in my mind: We work hard, we fail but we try again and fail again. Because that’s what progress looks like. Progress looks like a bunch of failures.

If that’s the case then I am making huge progress. But when does the good stuff start? I believe that everything happens for a reason, but I don’t see it anymore.

I know that things aren’t supposed to be easy, but isn’t the small rewards that makes us keep going? I want that small reward, I want a ray of light in the cloudy sky.

I try not to complain, but there is only enough troubles that a person can handle. So I’m going to edit now. I’m going to leave behind the real world and find some safety in the imaginary. There, at least, anything can happen. 

10 comments:

  1. {{{Hugs}}} I hope you will feel more positive tomorrow, and if you don't that you will still see that you do continue to make progress, Athina!

    It's true that life isn't easy, and some days are darker and harder than others. I tend to always try to find some things I appreciate - and I have to admit that some days, things I felt thankful for would only be : I am still breathing, and I love my family and they love me back...

    Good luck with your editing!

    Lexxie @ (un)Conventional Bookviews

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    1. Thanks for the kind words. I feel that way too. The most important is to be well and breathing, as you say. It's just that life is so much more and sometimes it's hard to avoid dark thoughts. I hope tomorrow it will be better.

      Thank you so much for stopping by. Have a great day.

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  2. I have been battling darkness lately too. Right after Thanksgiving when all the decorations came out and the dang cheer, I tell you I was a wreck. Christmas music made me cry! There are so many things that make me happy and yet...

    I know there's the time honored pep talk, "This too shall pass." That doesn't always work for me. But I just read an author talking about channeling her pain into her writing. That sounds good. I also realized where I didn't accomplish even half of my goals for the year, I struggled so much I had to have grown leaps and bounds. I have no idea what all I learned, but I learned a hell of a lot, I'm sure of it! (I'm addicted to this meme too!)

    I'm editing right there with you, girly!

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    1. Yes, Robyn. "This too shall pass" doesn't always work. But it's the truth even if we can't see it at these dark times.

      I'm trying to see it and I'm still editing. Channeling the pain is really helpful. Thanks for stopping by. :)

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  3. Athina, I am sorry the darkness has you in its grips! I hope you feel better about things soon. I am so glad you like TOL because I love reading your posts. They are always insightful. Thank you for sharing!

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    1. Thanks. I hope too.
      I'm so glad I joined this meme. :)

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  4. Aww Things will get better, hang in there. I'm glad that you're using this meme as a reliever and sharing it with us. No matter how dark it'll be, we will still accept you.

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    1. I keep saying that to myself too. Yes, TOL is being very helpful.
      Thanks for stopping by.

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  5. You're not alone with dark thoughts like this. It's always way too easy for me to focus on my failures and all the goals I have yet to accomplish. I hope all your editing relieves your mind a little!

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    1. Yes, I know. We are have our demons to fight. I'm like you, a little pessimist some times. I try to fight it off.
      Thanks for stopping by. Editing helped a lot.

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